hundred-sixty seventh.

dear (k)you,

so yeah, it's 2 days before i go on vacation. screw the days that i will miss in school. i deserve this vacation. kekeke. so yeah anyway, as you know, i know have the privilege of treating real people (can you believe that? yeah, unlucky for the patients). and well, i don't know if it's the same with you guys, but here in this hell hole, we have this thing with first stars, wishing on the first star that you see, and well, i've developed this habit of wishing that you and i be together.

i know, creepy huh? i guess it was just infatuation before, and then it became a habit that i couldn't (or maybe wouldn't) break. but stress about this stupid course finally forced me to break this creepy habit of mine. kekeke

yeah, instead of me wishing with all my might to ANYTHING that might actually heed me that you and i get together, i wish that i finish all my requirements and that i graduate on time. fat chance at the rate i'm going but well, i'm known to make it in the nick of time, so i leave it to OAO (come to think of it, i don't bother OAO about you and me anymore, it's mostly these patients)

now don't be hurt. you know that deep down, i still hope. yeah. cuz that's all i can do.

hundred-sixty sixth.

dear (k)you,

today was day 1. and man, was it craaazy. i'm so scared like hell, i can't even begin to comprehend it. i know that this is all part of it (i mean, it's always the first step that's the hardest, but seriously, i can't even begin to imagine how i'm supposed to do all those things).

it took me 2 hours to do something that other can do in 10 minutes. so how the hell am i going to do a normally 2 hours procedure?

but anyway, i'm appealing to you now (since starting now, i'm gonna be having a lot more time just staring into space, so might as well write), please be my lucky charm again. seriously, it's crazy.

hundred-sixty fifth.

dear (k)you,

i just think that i at least owe you the news: i made it :)

maybe now i can feel better about myself.
i do know that this change in my life would be very hard, after all life is a bitch and not a slut. but at least now, i am more than just a student. i'm definitely on my way to becoming what i would be.

it's scary at first, yes, but everything starts of scary anyway. i will get through, just as i got through the past 5 (okay maybe 2 and a half) years.

and yes, you'll still be making an appearance, no matter what.

until that day comes.

which day... well it'll depend on which would come first. kekek

but anyway. thank you. my lucky charm :)