eighty-ninth.

dear (k)you,

can you believe that i actually pushed through with my hibernation? i mean, i really went through with it, and i didn't touch the computer for a whole week! (internet i mean). i guess i'm overly focused now? i am so scared of failing, coz failing would keep me 1 more year away from the possibility of you. and i don't want that. a lot can happen in a year, so the faster i get on that road, the better. it's like this quote i read, "always think that there's a cute guy at the end of the tunnel". well, i always think that there's YOU at the end of the tunnel, and i when i do, i want to run as fast as i can towards the end. but of course, i have to get through these hurdles. and man. the past week or so was one of the rather bad ones. i literally studied the whole week. i always had study materials in my hands, reading and memorizing my ass off. only to do bad on 2 of the 5 exams i had. shit. but anyway, whatever these hardships, they'll eventually just pass. and pass they did. although i have to admit, it was one of the longest weeks ever.

in other news, i found the cutest thing circulating in the internet that concerns you. ahh. really. how can you make my heart beat fast, slow and irregularly at the same time huh?

damn. i wanna marry you.