dear (k)you,
okay before i go into hibernation again, i need to stress that i am at this point in my life where seriously, i really don't know why i am doing this. i do not like what i am going to be. i am not even remotely good at it! but well, i guess it'll just have to do.
i really really need a miracle or an intervention, whatever you might want to call it. i need you. i am willing to suck it all up until that day, if i can just be sure. but well, it wouldn't be called "life" it we can all plan everything and be sure about everything right?
i am not making sense. next entry would mark my hundredth letter. let's hope i can make it something special.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
ninety-seventh.
dear (k)you,
i am going to go into hibernation again, maybe for the whole week until wednesday. and i feel really sad that before i do, i am going to rant about how this is the worst monday of my 2010. but that's life. actually, relatively it wasn't THAT bad. since one, i was able to get my unknown (it's a lab test wherein we needed to find a freaking organism on a self-stained slide) in a matter of minutes (i was one of the first ones to finish). but other than that life just became a bitch and bitched me over. cuz of:
one: the exam i took today. i knew it. going online the night before an exam is really a death sentence. i did study but the ones that i skipped, were the ones that literally came out of the exam. every single one. and it was just crap cuz it would have been easy if i knew what to study. but oh well. if i fail, it's not like i didn't deserve it.
two: they just told me that next monday, we will be having an exam for the worst subject in the world, PLUS we have to report on a subject, PLUS we have another additional report for another subject, PLUS we might have another exam on another one of those worst subjects. so. there.
three: to make things WORSE, that monday was supposed to be a holiday but our freak of a president, didn't want to declare it one so yeah, life just sucks all around
oh and four: it doesn't help that you are so freaking close with this girl friend of yours (please note the space between the words "girl" and "friend")
and five: to top this whole day off, IT RAINED. and i DIDNT HAVE A FUNCTIONAL UMBRELLA WITH ME. so yeah. BEST DAY.
so OAO, remember what i said? You've already made my day so bad. and it's not like you're not going to make other days worse. but i don't care. so as long as you answer that 2 wishes i made on (what i think is) that shooting star. i don't care if you make everyday moday and that you pick on me for all eternity. JUST FOR THAT. just for that.
i am going to go into hibernation again, maybe for the whole week until wednesday. and i feel really sad that before i do, i am going to rant about how this is the worst monday of my 2010. but that's life. actually, relatively it wasn't THAT bad. since one, i was able to get my unknown (it's a lab test wherein we needed to find a freaking organism on a self-stained slide) in a matter of minutes (i was one of the first ones to finish). but other than that life just became a bitch and bitched me over. cuz of:
one: the exam i took today. i knew it. going online the night before an exam is really a death sentence. i did study but the ones that i skipped, were the ones that literally came out of the exam. every single one. and it was just crap cuz it would have been easy if i knew what to study. but oh well. if i fail, it's not like i didn't deserve it.
two: they just told me that next monday, we will be having an exam for the worst subject in the world, PLUS we have to report on a subject, PLUS we have another additional report for another subject, PLUS we might have another exam on another one of those worst subjects. so. there.
three: to make things WORSE, that monday was supposed to be a holiday but our freak of a president, didn't want to declare it one so yeah, life just sucks all around
oh and four: it doesn't help that you are so freaking close with this girl friend of yours (please note the space between the words "girl" and "friend")
and five: to top this whole day off, IT RAINED. and i DIDNT HAVE A FUNCTIONAL UMBRELLA WITH ME. so yeah. BEST DAY.
so OAO, remember what i said? You've already made my day so bad. and it's not like you're not going to make other days worse. but i don't care. so as long as you answer that 2 wishes i made on (what i think is) that shooting star. i don't care if you make everyday moday and that you pick on me for all eternity. JUST FOR THAT. just for that.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
ninety-sixth.
dear (k)you,
i really really need you already. it's not helping that school is being a bitch and taking up all of my time. but seriously. i really need you already.
i really really need you already. it's not helping that school is being a bitch and taking up all of my time. but seriously. i really need you already.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
ninety-fifth.
dear (k)you,
this is unbelieveable. what the hell did i get myself into? i know i've said things that i never really pushed through with, but lately i seem to be doing things that i tell myself to do. like
1. i told myself not to use the computer when there's an exam coming. while technically i said "a whole day before the said exam", i'm actually doing it days, even a week, before it. so what's up with that?
2. i told myself i'm gonna do this losing weight thing (honestly, not that i need to, actually i don't. i need to gain weight, or maybe maintain it). in the past, i cheat. but now, i am not. although this i think is because i'm having a sorta bet with a few friends, to reach a certain (scary) weight by the end of september. i need to lose 10lbs, my friends need to lose 30, so i don't know why i'm actually taking this too seriously. maybe for you? i don't know.
in other news, i really need to get to you. some things are happening in my life and while it was fun before, i think it's getting a little too messy right now. and all this will stop when you come and get me already. hmpf. not that you would but, theoretically. my mind is so messed up right now. i am so messed up. and tomorrow isn't going to be any better because this teacher is picking on me. i mean, she's not picking on me in a bad way. it's just that, i wanna finish already, and she's not letting me move on! i don't know why, so because she's trying to delay me (not that she's doing it on purpose of course), i am already losing my momentum. hurgh. it's so tiring.
i need to have a breaker. OAO, please?
i will write again soon. this is already nearing a hundred. oh, and still in other news, you've opened up to the world! although i haven't checked it again, and i am honestly scared to do so, cuz i don't know, i am possessive like that, but still, it's good that you have a life. heh.
ja ne!
this is unbelieveable. what the hell did i get myself into? i know i've said things that i never really pushed through with, but lately i seem to be doing things that i tell myself to do. like
1. i told myself not to use the computer when there's an exam coming. while technically i said "a whole day before the said exam", i'm actually doing it days, even a week, before it. so what's up with that?
2. i told myself i'm gonna do this losing weight thing (honestly, not that i need to, actually i don't. i need to gain weight, or maybe maintain it). in the past, i cheat. but now, i am not. although this i think is because i'm having a sorta bet with a few friends, to reach a certain (scary) weight by the end of september. i need to lose 10lbs, my friends need to lose 30, so i don't know why i'm actually taking this too seriously. maybe for you? i don't know.
in other news, i really need to get to you. some things are happening in my life and while it was fun before, i think it's getting a little too messy right now. and all this will stop when you come and get me already. hmpf. not that you would but, theoretically. my mind is so messed up right now. i am so messed up. and tomorrow isn't going to be any better because this teacher is picking on me. i mean, she's not picking on me in a bad way. it's just that, i wanna finish already, and she's not letting me move on! i don't know why, so because she's trying to delay me (not that she's doing it on purpose of course), i am already losing my momentum. hurgh. it's so tiring.
i need to have a breaker. OAO, please?
i will write again soon. this is already nearing a hundred. oh, and still in other news, you've opened up to the world! although i haven't checked it again, and i am honestly scared to do so, cuz i don't know, i am possessive like that, but still, it's good that you have a life. heh.
ja ne!
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