ninety-fifth.

dear (k)you,

this is unbelieveable. what the hell did i get myself into? i know i've said things that i never really pushed through with, but lately i seem to be doing things that i tell myself to do. like
1. i told myself not to use the computer when there's an exam coming. while technically i said "a whole day before the said exam", i'm actually doing it days, even a week, before it. so what's up with that?
2. i told myself i'm gonna do this losing weight thing (honestly, not that i need to, actually i don't. i need to gain weight, or maybe maintain it). in the past, i cheat. but now, i am not. although this i think is because i'm having a sorta bet with a few friends, to reach a certain (scary) weight by the end of september. i need to lose 10lbs, my friends need to lose 30, so i don't know why i'm actually taking this too seriously. maybe for you? i don't know.

in other news, i really need to get to you. some things are happening in my life and while it was fun before, i think it's getting a little too messy right now. and all this will stop when you come and get me already. hmpf. not that you would but, theoretically. my mind is so messed up right now. i am so messed up. and tomorrow isn't going to be any better because this teacher is picking on me. i mean, she's not picking on me in a bad way. it's just that, i wanna finish already, and she's not letting me move on! i don't know why, so because she's trying to delay me (not that she's doing it on purpose of course), i am already losing my momentum. hurgh. it's so tiring.

i need to have a breaker. OAO, please?

i will write again soon. this is already nearing a hundred. oh, and still in other news, you've opened up to the world! although i haven't checked it again, and i am honestly scared to do so, cuz i don't know, i am possessive like that, but still, it's good that you have a life. heh.

ja ne!