dear (k)you,
something funny happened to me the other day. so for the past, 2-3 days, i was working in this convention for my people of my would be profession. so basically, we just hang around forums and talks, handing out papers and asking people to turn off the flash in their cameras. we occasionally ferry speakers from the lounge to their function rooms. and would you have it? we had tons of speakers from your land! and get this, one of them. actually, the first speaker i tended to, would you believe, is actually an alum in your school. heh. kinda funny.
but well, that's that. i just realized how much i isolate myself from "people", because i always have you in mind. you. always you.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
hundred-sixth.
dear (k)you,
i'm beginning to think you have this lucky charm on me. i mean, i did think that before, but well, reality hit me and i kinda forgot about it. but now, whoa. see, ever since i started ranting to you again, things started to fall into place. i mean, the exam that i HAVE to pass, paved it's way to let me scrape a decent passing score. and the exam that i feel too bitter about? guess what? turns out the professor went crazy, used the calculator wrong and counted my grade wrong. turns out i'm exempted from taking that exam. kekeke. can't believe it tho.
now, if only i passed that one other test. hmm. but i guess that would be pushing my luck huh? oh and, my tooth is hurting so bad right now. actually, i might have to go get an rct. feel my dread right now. but come on, i practically living on the pain killers lately and last night, i couldn't sleep a wink. and i ended up sleeping sitting down, cuz lying down only makes the pain worse. i've never felt this kind of pain ever. it was just surreal. i felt like i was going to faint from the pain honestly. and i have high pain tolerance. physical pain i mean, mental pain is a little different.
crap. it hurts soooo much right now. i guess i hafta go and drink another round, since it's my sister's birthday dinner, and no amount of pain can stop me from eating pizza and pasta. kekeke. need to gain weight too, and a toothache wouldn't be helpful right?
i'm beginning to think you have this lucky charm on me. i mean, i did think that before, but well, reality hit me and i kinda forgot about it. but now, whoa. see, ever since i started ranting to you again, things started to fall into place. i mean, the exam that i HAVE to pass, paved it's way to let me scrape a decent passing score. and the exam that i feel too bitter about? guess what? turns out the professor went crazy, used the calculator wrong and counted my grade wrong. turns out i'm exempted from taking that exam. kekeke. can't believe it tho.
now, if only i passed that one other test. hmm. but i guess that would be pushing my luck huh? oh and, my tooth is hurting so bad right now. actually, i might have to go get an rct. feel my dread right now. but come on, i practically living on the pain killers lately and last night, i couldn't sleep a wink. and i ended up sleeping sitting down, cuz lying down only makes the pain worse. i've never felt this kind of pain ever. it was just surreal. i felt like i was going to faint from the pain honestly. and i have high pain tolerance. physical pain i mean, mental pain is a little different.
crap. it hurts soooo much right now. i guess i hafta go and drink another round, since it's my sister's birthday dinner, and no amount of pain can stop me from eating pizza and pasta. kekeke. need to gain weight too, and a toothache wouldn't be helpful right?
Monday, October 18, 2010
hundred-fifth.
dear (k)you,
okay. i take it back. i guess things are a bit better now. i just passed 75% of the exam that i HAVE to pass, and it feels really good. i mean, having to hear the word, "okay" is so comforting this day. i honestly felt like a chorus of angels were singing when the professor gave me her okay signal.
still feel peeved about the weather. i just need an excuse to not do anything at all. or at least THAT thing. that exam that i feel too bitter about >.<
okay. i take it back. i guess things are a bit better now. i just passed 75% of the exam that i HAVE to pass, and it feels really good. i mean, having to hear the word, "okay" is so comforting this day. i honestly felt like a chorus of angels were singing when the professor gave me her okay signal.
still feel peeved about the weather. i just need an excuse to not do anything at all. or at least THAT thing. that exam that i feel too bitter about >.<
Sunday, October 17, 2010
hundred-fourth.
dear (k)you,
okay. 4 days to go, and officially i've totally lost any want of life. i'm serious, OAO, You sold me out. but whatever, like i said, i've totally lost any hold on anything. I JUST DON'T CARE ANYMORE.
who am i kidding, of course, deep down, i still kinda care. after all, this world is founded on stuff like this. (stuff like what? you might be asking. frankly, i'm not too sure) anyway.
remember 15ish days ago, i was ranting about messing up this exam, well, i totally messed it up already. as in totally. i'm taking a removal exam for it the next semester, and if i don't make it still then, i will be having my first ever failed subject. EVER. IN MY LIFE. and it's really very sucky for me i swear. ugh. don't care. and it doesn't help that the next 4 days, i have more exams coming. one i feel all too bitter about. another, I HAVE TO PASS. NO MATTER WHAT. and i don't know what to do anymore. i swear.
and to cap it all off, stupid weather isn't being cooperative too. there's supposed to be a super typhoon plaguing this sorry excuse of a country of mine. and while i know it'd mean tragedy to most of the people here in the metro. i am actually so peeved that it's off my several kilometers. all i want is a sorry excuse to forgo this fucking week. i've honestly never been this stressed in my life. and i know i'm not one to talk about stress at all, given that i am a student, and there are a million things to be stressed over, but what can i do? i prolly just have a low tolerance for life. and how i wish life would just decide to be bored with itself and do something. ANYTHING. or i don't know. would be a good time for a meteor to fall or something. hit the earth.
on the bright side (actually i don't know if this is really bright), i guess your coming back here. kekeke. i'll get to see you again. hopefully. maybe this time, you'll see me? heh. i doubt.
OAO was never one to answer my pleas anyway.
okay. 4 days to go, and officially i've totally lost any want of life. i'm serious, OAO, You sold me out. but whatever, like i said, i've totally lost any hold on anything. I JUST DON'T CARE ANYMORE.
who am i kidding, of course, deep down, i still kinda care. after all, this world is founded on stuff like this. (stuff like what? you might be asking. frankly, i'm not too sure) anyway.
remember 15ish days ago, i was ranting about messing up this exam, well, i totally messed it up already. as in totally. i'm taking a removal exam for it the next semester, and if i don't make it still then, i will be having my first ever failed subject. EVER. IN MY LIFE. and it's really very sucky for me i swear. ugh. don't care. and it doesn't help that the next 4 days, i have more exams coming. one i feel all too bitter about. another, I HAVE TO PASS. NO MATTER WHAT. and i don't know what to do anymore. i swear.
and to cap it all off, stupid weather isn't being cooperative too. there's supposed to be a super typhoon plaguing this sorry excuse of a country of mine. and while i know it'd mean tragedy to most of the people here in the metro. i am actually so peeved that it's off my several kilometers. all i want is a sorry excuse to forgo this fucking week. i've honestly never been this stressed in my life. and i know i'm not one to talk about stress at all, given that i am a student, and there are a million things to be stressed over, but what can i do? i prolly just have a low tolerance for life. and how i wish life would just decide to be bored with itself and do something. ANYTHING. or i don't know. would be a good time for a meteor to fall or something. hit the earth.
on the bright side (actually i don't know if this is really bright), i guess your coming back here. kekeke. i'll get to see you again. hopefully. maybe this time, you'll see me? heh. i doubt.
OAO was never one to answer my pleas anyway.
Friday, October 1, 2010
hundred-third.
dear (k)you,
today i just had prolly the worst day of this whole semester. yep. 20 days remaining, and i get THAT day. well, it isn't really very new anymore. i've gotten my share of rejected work from the past. but this one's different. this particular exercise actually has the ability to dictate my future. and i kinda messed it up. see cuz, we get 3 chances to do the exercise. most of my classmates forfeited the first chance. so they get 2, i get 3. but sadly, i messed up the 1st try. but anyways. what does it matter anyway?
oh yeah, it matters cuz i really want to face you proudly again. without any subject left behind. granted that yes, if i do not pull this through, i will not technically get delayed, but still. that kinda puts me behind the class now wouldn't it? and i'm already right smack in the middle so... that'll be really sad then.
anyway. have faith in me my dear self-proclaimed soulmate. help me have the courage to face this head on. and that at the end of 20 days. i can still proudly stand and say. "ON TIME."
today i just had prolly the worst day of this whole semester. yep. 20 days remaining, and i get THAT day. well, it isn't really very new anymore. i've gotten my share of rejected work from the past. but this one's different. this particular exercise actually has the ability to dictate my future. and i kinda messed it up. see cuz, we get 3 chances to do the exercise. most of my classmates forfeited the first chance. so they get 2, i get 3. but sadly, i messed up the 1st try. but anyways. what does it matter anyway?
oh yeah, it matters cuz i really want to face you proudly again. without any subject left behind. granted that yes, if i do not pull this through, i will not technically get delayed, but still. that kinda puts me behind the class now wouldn't it? and i'm already right smack in the middle so... that'll be really sad then.
anyway. have faith in me my dear self-proclaimed soulmate. help me have the courage to face this head on. and that at the end of 20 days. i can still proudly stand and say. "ON TIME."
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