hundred-forty fourth.

dear (k)you,

I AM FUCKING DONE WITH THIS SEMESTER!

HAH!

it isn't official yet, but i'm claiming it... I'M ON MY 3RD YEAR. hell. to the. YEAH.

hundred-forty third.

dear (k)you,

this should be the last one i do. i swear. my myriad of finals is fast approaching, and well, i should be studying (instead of gossiping with my family, and watching tv shows, and reading useless beauty and gossip blogs) pfft.

but i just can't stop thinking about this song i heard accidentally. actually it's not accidental as i know it already from far back, but then i heard a different take on it, and wow, once again i am emotionally handicapped, and because of you again nonetheless.

[after 5 hours...] i shouldn't be blaming it on you, i messed up tonight, big time. anyway, here are the lyrics of the song. and yeah, this nails it.

ps: and oh yeah, this is the hundred forty third post. 1-4-3. should make this special, but, well. it can wait.

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces fill the places I can't reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you
And all you know
And how you speak
Countless lovers undercover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night
While you live it up I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat

I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me
Somebody

Someone like you
Somebody
Someone like you
Somebody
Someone like you
Somebody

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see

hundred-forty second.

dear (k)you,

this is just funny. i actually wanted to write to you earlier this morning, but then my stupid internet started acting up, so i said maybe it was OAO's way of making me study, which i did most of the day. heh. but see, i still ended up writing to you.

okay, i know it's not much, but the thing is, i kinda forgot about you. heh. yeah, my mind was filled with all that shit about my 10 million exams that i forgot about you for a moment. and then, while on my study break, i visited this blog that i frequent and i saw one of her posts, randomly talking about you! and so there. see the thing is, it was a very, very, very old post of her and it was a very, very, very random mention of you. so yeah. i'm here now.

anyway, i'm almost in the home stretch for this year, but it is STILL killing me. i really don't have any life left in me anymore. i cannot wait for this to be over. ALL OF THIS.

and how the hell am i going to study when my internet FINALLY AFTER A STRESSFUL WEEKEND, is cooperating.

fck.

hundred-forty first.

dear (k)you,

oh dear. i swear i really should be studying. but my attention span with this subject is less than a fly, so goodluck with tomorrow's exam. i'd have you to be my lucky charm anyway, so please please.

anyway, on a more serious note, things are going haywire right now in the world right? i don't know if i'm gonna be pissed that it seems like it's the end of the world cuz 1) we still haven't met; 2) you still need to fall madly in love with me (heh) and 3) i'm actually crossing my fingers that this would be true. on the other side of the scale tho, i want to end all of this already. i know, i know selfish of me, why don't i just kill myself? but the thing is, i AM selfish. i don't want to be the ONLY one who dies. i mean, in my family at least.

OH MY GOD I AM SUCH AN EVIL TWISTED DEMENTED PERSON. I DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING.

but anyway, i should get back to the beauty blog i was reading, so i can at least hurry and start reading the stupid study materials.

why do i even bother?? as my classmate said, "i've read em, but I DON'T KNOW SHIT."

hundred-fortieth.

dear (k)you,

oh you, it's always you,

it's always you...

it's always you.

hundred-thirty ninth.

dear (k)you,

alright. this is it. final stretch. actually, it's still 28 days (or should i say ONLY 28 days? it's all in the way you look at things) AAAANYWAAAAY. 28 days. after this, things will calm down.

the way, "there's always a calm before a storm". cuz 1st semester will be THE semester.

all my sunbaes say so. it's the make or break semester. cuz after this semester, i'll be on my way...

and prolly feel better about myself too.

but until then, i have to get past this(ESE) hurdle(SSSSSSSSSS). whatever. i will get past it. it's not the theme song of my life for nothing.

i'm doing just fine, i'm always landing on my feet...
in the nick of time and by skin and by teeth.

hundred-thirty eighth.

dear (k)you,

this is probably the only time i'll have until i mess up my life. but whatever, it's gonna work out anyway. 30 days will fly by, and before i know it, i'll be on my way to the last academic semester of my life. it's gonna kick ass. cuz before i know it, i'll be gone. outta here. over there.

whoops. i'm getting a little too ahead of myself oh?

anyway, i just remembered, i can still proudly say that i can face you, with me legally on time. HA. still can't get over it.

I CAN PULL THROUGH.