hundred-sixty third.

dear (k)you,

how are you doing? i've been busy, but well, not as busy as i should be. keke. anyway. i guess you're doing well since i haven't heard news about you. although, honestly, the reason i haven't is because, well, i stopped... before you get all hurt and all, it's not because i stopped caring (God knows that isn't very possible in the near, or far, future), but i've come to realize it's because i'm too scared of the news that i might hear.

yeah. even though i have no effin right over you, i'm scared that you might go crazy and suddenly announce that you're seeing this girl, just like the first love. i mean, i'm pretty sure that you do have a girl hidden somewhere, but there's a difference if you are openly announcing you're relationship as opposed to hiding her. not that it should matter to me right? but well. it's just like that.

so yeah. i know that there's also that possibility that you aren't (maybe you guys aren't allowed-- in which case i thank your bosses for that), but i hope the odds are in my favor. i'm going hunger games on you huh. oh well. i should really start studying now.

hell starts now. i guess i'll see you in 2 months time. hopefully then, things will start to look brighter for me. fingers crossed.