hundred-sixty eighth.

dear (k)you,

so yeah. it's a few days before the new year and i guess, well... nothing much has changed. i'm still overly obsessed with the idea of you.

anyway, funny thing, i know i've always said stupid stuff like that, but well, a few weeks ago, was the first time that i actually had a dream about you. yeah. it was very clear, vivid for someone who hasn't seen you in quite sometime (1 year 8 months 11 days but yeah who's counting). yeah. it was very vivid, and you were singing to me (yeah, typical) and then all of a sudden, you're asking me to marry you (yeah, let me just point out that right now, dream me is screaming to the heavens why this has to be a fucking dream), and then since OAO can't even make me enjoy the damn dream, you drop the ring and we go looking for it around the, and this is where it gets funny again, fountain of my high school's gym (let me just point out that i graduated high school around 5 years ago and they already took that gym down to be replaced), and then, i get to find the ring, and it's a mommy (meaning bigger) version of the ring that i always wear. and then you take it from me with that smile of yours and yeah...

i wake up. but well, it was okay, cuz dork that i am, i was smiling after that. and i swore i was going to write about it, but yeah, school got the better of me, AGAIN.

but i'm writing about it now. kekeke. so there. heart.

oh, and another thing happened to me. a few days ago, this cousin of one of my bffs died. and it sucks you know, since i kinda had this crush on him. he had that "you" look. so yeah. still can't get over it though since he was about my age too.

yeah.

so this'd prolly be my last post for the year. God i hope the next year will be better.

and this time i really sincerely mean and hope it will.

.forever alone.jpeg kekekeke