Sunday, February 5, 2012

hundred-seventy third.

dear (k)you,

it was your birthday 2 days ago. i meant to write. to greet you. but i guess that was part of my "weaning" away from you program.

unfortunately, that doesn't cover moments like this when i feel like crap. seriously. i don't understand it. i choose to be here in my house, with my family. but the thing is, they don't seem to like me even a fraction of as much as i love them. i don't think they even like me.

classic example, whenever i open my mouth and ask a question, even the most mundane things, they literally IGNORE me or answer me irritably. i mean seriously.

well, i do think i kinda deserve it, i mean, i do treat someone in this house like that. but fuck. i definitely should get a personality upgrade. maybe then people will start to like me.

i try my best to be likeable, but seems like it all ends up as being annoying to my family. and sometimes i can't help but wonder, what they would feel if i suddenly disappeared or died. heh. that would be something huh. if i died.

i wish i do. just so i can see all their faces and make them realize how much they took me for granted.

yeah. belated happy birthday btw.

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