dear (k)you,
i did it! finally i'm finished with all the exams! and i can finally rest. i think, no, i should - thank you. i know you had nothing to do with it, heck, you don't even know. but it really helped me. you know, me psyching myself up like this. it really helped.
you kinda help me... a lot... and you don't even know it. hm.
so yeah, thanks.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
forty-eighth.
dear (k)you,
tomorrow is the day. my last day i mean. please do your magic okay? no more exam talk for the next 2 months or so. and i can finally think only of... kekekeke. anyway. i need to get back to stuffing my head of information. that's my new game plan. just keep on stuffing my head. keep on memorizing stuff until it gives in. it kinda work for the past few ones, so. here's to all my crossed fingers and toes.
tomorrow is the day. my last day i mean. please do your magic okay? no more exam talk for the next 2 months or so. and i can finally think only of... kekekeke. anyway. i need to get back to stuffing my head of information. that's my new game plan. just keep on stuffing my head. keep on memorizing stuff until it gives in. it kinda work for the past few ones, so. here's to all my crossed fingers and toes.
Friday, March 26, 2010
forty-seventh.
dear (k)you,
YAY. you did it! i can finally eat and (sorta) relax now. i pulled my average to something more than passing. and i got a pretty high grade on that exam that i studied like hell for. it wasn't so high, but it was high enough for me. it could've been better, if i just understood HOW THE TEACHER WANTED ME TO ANSWER. grrr. i swear, what pisses me off, is i know exactly what he was talking about, but i couldn't answer the way he wanted. but in any case, it was all good. now all i have to do is get a passing grade on the exam on monday and i'm pretty safe. of course i wanna get something higher, just so i wouldn't get my first 3. but hey, i'm not one to complain. i just want to pass.
because me passing means... you coming here already.
YAY. you did it! i can finally eat and (sorta) relax now. i pulled my average to something more than passing. and i got a pretty high grade on that exam that i studied like hell for. it wasn't so high, but it was high enough for me. it could've been better, if i just understood HOW THE TEACHER WANTED ME TO ANSWER. grrr. i swear, what pisses me off, is i know exactly what he was talking about, but i couldn't answer the way he wanted. but in any case, it was all good. now all i have to do is get a passing grade on the exam on monday and i'm pretty safe. of course i wanna get something higher, just so i wouldn't get my first 3. but hey, i'm not one to complain. i just want to pass.
because me passing means... you coming here already.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
forty-sixth.
dear (k)you,
they are going to return one exam tomorrow. the exam that i studied like hell for. but even though i did, i still feel like i am going to fail that exam. i mean seriously. that subject has a way of disappointing me in different levels. and i can't bear it anymore. i think that stupid table is going to do me in. and i have a few mistakes that are minor, but given how shitty the professor checks the exam, he's prolly no going to let it pass. which is fucking bad for me, because i can't get a hang of how he wants the answers written. i do not think like him, so i prolly won't be able to write it properly or the way he wants it to be written.
oh God. i can't breathe again. if i fail this, i definitely cannot pull my grade up anymore to pass. and if that happens, i'm going to repeat. i cannot. but why do i feel so anxious already?
EVERYTHING IS GOING BAD. i can't even face you properly.
they are going to return one exam tomorrow. the exam that i studied like hell for. but even though i did, i still feel like i am going to fail that exam. i mean seriously. that subject has a way of disappointing me in different levels. and i can't bear it anymore. i think that stupid table is going to do me in. and i have a few mistakes that are minor, but given how shitty the professor checks the exam, he's prolly no going to let it pass. which is fucking bad for me, because i can't get a hang of how he wants the answers written. i do not think like him, so i prolly won't be able to write it properly or the way he wants it to be written.
oh God. i can't breathe again. if i fail this, i definitely cannot pull my grade up anymore to pass. and if that happens, i'm going to repeat. i cannot. but why do i feel so anxious already?
EVERYTHING IS GOING BAD. i can't even face you properly.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
forty-fifth.
dear (k)you,
well it's not like i can resist not writing to you. so here i am. kekeke. i really hope i pass this exam. it was hella hard. i hate it coz i was pretending like it was just okay, but i had a lot of mistakes already. and it sucks! if i don't pass this, i have to go back on the 5th! which sucks... anyway, in other news, my friend gave birth already! kekeke. (disclaimer: this statement cannot reveal my age, because let us remember that there are 13 year olds getting pregnant. not that i'm 13, but you get the picture. kekeke) anyway, the little baby girl was so cute! i think she'll name her chloe carlanne. but we have a funnier nickname for the kid. we just kept calling her that, so it stuck.
anyway. PLEASE OH PLEASE WORK YOUR MAGIC OKAY? 60. just 60 and i'll be happy.
well it's not like i can resist not writing to you. so here i am. kekeke. i really hope i pass this exam. it was hella hard. i hate it coz i was pretending like it was just okay, but i had a lot of mistakes already. and it sucks! if i don't pass this, i have to go back on the 5th! which sucks... anyway, in other news, my friend gave birth already! kekeke. (disclaimer: this statement cannot reveal my age, because let us remember that there are 13 year olds getting pregnant. not that i'm 13, but you get the picture. kekeke) anyway, the little baby girl was so cute! i think she'll name her chloe carlanne. but we have a funnier nickname for the kid. we just kept calling her that, so it stuck.
anyway. PLEASE OH PLEASE WORK YOUR MAGIC OKAY? 60. just 60 and i'll be happy.
Monday, March 22, 2010
forty-fourth.
dear (k)you,
i hafta study so bad already. i need this. i need to get over this hurdle already. please don't distract me too much okay? i'm gonna see you soon anyway. just give me a week first. one week.
i hafta study so bad already. i need this. i need to get over this hurdle already. please don't distract me too much okay? i'm gonna see you soon anyway. just give me a week first. one week.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
forty-third.
dear (k)you,
you did it again!! i'm pretty happy right now! 2 exams to go! i think i should be studying now, but i think i wanna rest my brain. kekeke. so anyway. i went to school freakishly early today, just so we could study. and i swear, i haven't studied this much in a long time. but i kinda feel bad, because i have around 15 points off already. but no matter. i have room for 15 more. hopefully! and then they gave out the results for another exam. i know i did okay on that one. it just makes it so freaking cool that i don't have to take the final exam on that subject anymore.
i know i'm prolly boring you with all the exam talk (but it's not like you can read this ne?), but these exams are all that's taking up my freaking brain these past few weeks. coz if i fail one of them, i would repeat ONE FREAKING WHOLE YEAR. which i do not want to do, coz that would delay me going to you. kekeke. KIDDING. so anyway. this just sucks. and can i just say...
INCIPIENT IS NOT = TO INFECTED. i hate myself. what a stupid mistake!!
you did it again!! i'm pretty happy right now! 2 exams to go! i think i should be studying now, but i think i wanna rest my brain. kekeke. so anyway. i went to school freakishly early today, just so we could study. and i swear, i haven't studied this much in a long time. but i kinda feel bad, because i have around 15 points off already. but no matter. i have room for 15 more. hopefully! and then they gave out the results for another exam. i know i did okay on that one. it just makes it so freaking cool that i don't have to take the final exam on that subject anymore.
i know i'm prolly boring you with all the exam talk (but it's not like you can read this ne?), but these exams are all that's taking up my freaking brain these past few weeks. coz if i fail one of them, i would repeat ONE FREAKING WHOLE YEAR. which i do not want to do, coz that would delay me going to you. kekeke. KIDDING. so anyway. this just sucks. and can i just say...
INCIPIENT IS NOT = TO INFECTED. i hate myself. what a stupid mistake!!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
forty-second.
dear (k)you,
remember that exam i was dreading? sigh. yup, i got unbelievably low marks on that one. not like i expected to pass (actually i did, but that would've been a total miracle). anyway, so i got 50% on that exam. and now, my standing is still failing. i need to get a 65 on tomorrow's exam just to pass. and i'm getting so frustrated already. i've been studying and studying, but i still feel that i won't be enough, just because it's the WORST subject ever. by worst i don't mean it's not necessary, but it's just the way they make the freaking exam. it's just not designed to make you pass. ugh. or maybe i was just too lazy to study the last exam. i don't know. i don't care. yesterday was the peak of my frustration and i really wanted to throw something. anything. ugh. please make a miracle okay? help me tomorrow. be with me in spirit. kekeke. but don't die! kekeke. you know what i mean. imma go back to studying now.
PANIC.
remember that exam i was dreading? sigh. yup, i got unbelievably low marks on that one. not like i expected to pass (actually i did, but that would've been a total miracle). anyway, so i got 50% on that exam. and now, my standing is still failing. i need to get a 65 on tomorrow's exam just to pass. and i'm getting so frustrated already. i've been studying and studying, but i still feel that i won't be enough, just because it's the WORST subject ever. by worst i don't mean it's not necessary, but it's just the way they make the freaking exam. it's just not designed to make you pass. ugh. or maybe i was just too lazy to study the last exam. i don't know. i don't care. yesterday was the peak of my frustration and i really wanted to throw something. anything. ugh. please make a miracle okay? help me tomorrow. be with me in spirit. kekeke. but don't die! kekeke. you know what i mean. imma go back to studying now.
PANIC.
Monday, March 15, 2010
forty-first.
dear (k)you,
just one, before i hibernate again with my handouts. i got word that i did surprisingly well in one exam. i say surprising, coz i wasn't expecting to get that much from that. i mean, it was relatively easy (although some did get surprisingly low marks on it -- and i mean, surprisingly low. 47/100? and that wasn't even the lowest.) and plus, i was on the upper pile, so that NEVER happens. kekeke. so, i think it was a good omen. too bad, tomorrow i will receive the exam that i dread the most (think less that 50%). ugh. i am still hoping that i be able to at least scrape a 57, just so i won't have a negative grade (that's how low my grade for this subject are. huhuhu). anyhow, don't judge me, coz i know you guys study like hell. and you are a pretty good student. i am still in the median range of the class, so i guess. kekeke.
i will get 2 exams tomorrow. the first, i'm pretty sure, will be okay. the other one... all i can do is sigh. i guess i better stop and start studying already (i am studying for that subject). i have to get an amazingly high grade for this last exam to pull my grade up. please please, work your magic spell on me 'kay?
just one, before i hibernate again with my handouts. i got word that i did surprisingly well in one exam. i say surprising, coz i wasn't expecting to get that much from that. i mean, it was relatively easy (although some did get surprisingly low marks on it -- and i mean, surprisingly low. 47/100? and that wasn't even the lowest.) and plus, i was on the upper pile, so that NEVER happens. kekeke. so, i think it was a good omen. too bad, tomorrow i will receive the exam that i dread the most (think less that 50%). ugh. i am still hoping that i be able to at least scrape a 57, just so i won't have a negative grade (that's how low my grade for this subject are. huhuhu). anyhow, don't judge me, coz i know you guys study like hell. and you are a pretty good student. i am still in the median range of the class, so i guess. kekeke.
i will get 2 exams tomorrow. the first, i'm pretty sure, will be okay. the other one... all i can do is sigh. i guess i better stop and start studying already (i am studying for that subject). i have to get an amazingly high grade for this last exam to pull my grade up. please please, work your magic spell on me 'kay?
Saturday, March 13, 2010
thirty-ninth.
dear (k)you,
really. just to emphasize my point(s?).
the title of this picture when i found it was: possible - impossible.
two things:
1. i am just about to do that (kiss the floor, maybe with your picture on it. kekeke), something so "fan-girly", because you make me go crazy.
and 2. like i said. i could do ANYTHING for you. and that's something impossible, in the books of people who know me.
Friday, March 12, 2010
thirty-eighth.
dear (k)you,
i am on my way to crossing "that" line, not that i haven't already technically, i mean, with all this shit i've been doing for you, but i think i may have to admit it finally to myself when i do that. sigh. you. you are the only person i would, literally, do anything for. and i mean ABSOLUTELY anything. you just have that power. and i swear, there isn't anyone like you in my life right now. not even anyone in my family. maybe that's why i would do anything for you...
because i know you won't ask. but still, i'm not just saying this coz i know there isn't any likelihood of that happening (i mean you asking me to do anything), so that it'd be technically null. if by some miracle you actually do, i won't go back on my word.
and i think i just have to repeat myself. i would do ANYTHING.
ANYTHING. for you.
you may have no idea, but that one word can mean so much.
i am on my way to crossing "that" line, not that i haven't already technically, i mean, with all this shit i've been doing for you, but i think i may have to admit it finally to myself when i do that. sigh. you. you are the only person i would, literally, do anything for. and i mean ABSOLUTELY anything. you just have that power. and i swear, there isn't anyone like you in my life right now. not even anyone in my family. maybe that's why i would do anything for you...
because i know you won't ask. but still, i'm not just saying this coz i know there isn't any likelihood of that happening (i mean you asking me to do anything), so that it'd be technically null. if by some miracle you actually do, i won't go back on my word.
and i think i just have to repeat myself. i would do ANYTHING.
ANYTHING. for you.
you may have no idea, but that one word can mean so much.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
thrity-seventh.
dear (k)you,
i just finished another exam. i think pretty much i did okay with that. i do hope i get exempted from that already so i can fully devote my time to the other stuff (read: you). kekeke. so this brings down my exam count to 4! (i declare 4 because i won't take the final exam for the other exam. i am going to try my best to scrape a 60 on that exam). so please do your magic okay? kekeke. you did for this exam, i think because i saw your birthday celebration. i wonder if that was the same time i saw the shooting star? imma check ^_^
i just finished another exam. i think pretty much i did okay with that. i do hope i get exempted from that already so i can fully devote my time to the other stuff (read: you). kekeke. so this brings down my exam count to 4! (i declare 4 because i won't take the final exam for the other exam. i am going to try my best to scrape a 60 on that exam). so please do your magic okay? kekeke. you did for this exam, i think because i saw your birthday celebration. i wonder if that was the same time i saw the shooting star? imma check ^_^
Monday, March 8, 2010
thirty-sixth.
dear (k)you,
i am having a headache right now because of the heat T__T what sucks even more is (as usual) i have an exam coming up (why do i always seem to write to you when i have an exam?). but whatever, i'm going to read the last transcription and then maybe review a bit, because seriously, every move i make makes my head hurt T__T
i guess thinking of you makes it hurt less ^_^
i am having a headache right now because of the heat T__T what sucks even more is (as usual) i have an exam coming up (why do i always seem to write to you when i have an exam?). but whatever, i'm going to read the last transcription and then maybe review a bit, because seriously, every move i make makes my head hurt T__T
i guess thinking of you makes it hurt less ^_^
Friday, March 5, 2010
thirty-fifth.
dear (k)you,
you are so mighty fiiine! i couldn't help my poor pathetic face from smiling. you are doing so well, you are working so hard, it makes me feel bad that i'm not. well technically, i am. i'm trying my best to come prepared when we see eachother. i still really really want some freaking miracle to happen. i just... i really don't know anymore.
yesterday, my mind was such a mess. and i hated it, coz it's because of someone (booguy2boo) but now, my mind's a mess again. but it's a good mess. coz it's you who's messing it up. and i like it like this. stay all you want. mess it up as much as you want. actually, scratch that. don't ever leave. you are the only one who can do this to me. you're the only one who has the authority to do so.
you are so mighty fiiine! i couldn't help my poor pathetic face from smiling. you are doing so well, you are working so hard, it makes me feel bad that i'm not. well technically, i am. i'm trying my best to come prepared when we see eachother. i still really really want some freaking miracle to happen. i just... i really don't know anymore.
yesterday, my mind was such a mess. and i hated it, coz it's because of someone (booguy2boo) but now, my mind's a mess again. but it's a good mess. coz it's you who's messing it up. and i like it like this. stay all you want. mess it up as much as you want. actually, scratch that. don't ever leave. you are the only one who can do this to me. you're the only one who has the authority to do so.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
thirty-fourth.
dear (k)you,
bear with this for now.
dear OAO,
you know how tired i was (no, actually, am). you have an idea how much my legs wanted to give in already. and you also have an idea why i still walked. you already know, but i just want to emphasize it one more time. i am so determined to prove to you i deserve him. okay?
bear with this for now.
dear OAO,
you know how tired i was (no, actually, am). you have an idea how much my legs wanted to give in already. and you also have an idea why i still walked. you already know, but i just want to emphasize it one more time. i am so determined to prove to you i deserve him. okay?
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
thirty-third.
dear (k)you,
please hurry here already. please come and sweep me off my feet. i need to get away from this mess i am in. you really have to step up, because honestly, i really don't know if i can trust myself anymore. i'm slowly becoming too sad to control. but i will try my best.
just please hurry.
please hurry here already. please come and sweep me off my feet. i need to get away from this mess i am in. you really have to step up, because honestly, i really don't know if i can trust myself anymore. i'm slowly becoming too sad to control. but i will try my best.
just please hurry.
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