forty-sixth.

dear (k)you,

they are going to return one exam tomorrow. the exam that i studied like hell for. but even though i did, i still feel like i am going to fail that exam. i mean seriously. that subject has a way of disappointing me in different levels. and i can't bear it anymore. i think that stupid table is going to do me in. and i have a few mistakes that are minor, but given how shitty the professor checks the exam, he's prolly no going to let it pass. which is fucking bad for me, because i can't get a hang of how he wants the answers written. i do not think like him, so i prolly won't be able to write it properly or the way he wants it to be written.

oh God. i can't breathe again. if i fail this, i definitely cannot pull my grade up anymore to pass. and if that happens, i'm going to repeat. i cannot. but why do i feel so anxious already?

EVERYTHING IS GOING BAD. i can't even face you properly.