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dear (k)you,
since i've lost hope of class suspension tomorrow, and before i jump in into the world of wizards and magic, i just wanted to share this random post i saw:
(disclaimer: okay i know i said a few posts back that that is the last time i would be writing about the asshole who screwed me up, but whatever, when did i ever follow through with the things i say?)
"most people understand and know the feeling of being played. being
played by a boy... (who) makes you smile just be texting you "hey". a boy that you had
something with. a boy that constantly made you laugh and smile. a boy
that stopped texting you one day. a boy that started ignoring you,
acting like he didn't know you, and acting like you never had something.
most girls know that feeling. most girls wish they could give that boy
up..."
so i deleted a few lines which were out of context, but basically that's it. it did kind of hit the spot straight on. and what scares me is the fact that had he not acted like a complete arse, i would have chosen him. i was so ready to give him a chance, hell, i think i did give him a chance already, but he changed his mind first.
kinda reminds me of that song:
"and the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now."
i really wanna go back to thinking about you. and school. i think i was happier back then hating on just school.
dear (k)you,
hi. it's been quite a while now right? well. it's raining, nothing better to do than mope.
anyway, several things have happened. for one, the olympics has started. it was great yknow. very dramatic, if you know what i mean. ha. course you do, you've seen it. you've hosted the olympics. anyway, i just keep watching that torch lighting from 20 years ago. it's just dramatic. my kind of thing.
second thing, and prolly the more important one. i'm sad. i don't understand why i even keep hurting myself. why i even keep thinking of him. he wasn't even that great. he was just there. and, sadly, i saw something. i thought i saw something good.
i guess i was wrong.
again.
that's why i miss you. you never let me down.
dear (k)you,
oh wow. would you look at that, it's been 200 posts already. man.
anyway. nothing's really going well right now for me. well, no. scratch that. everything's just a stalemate. school's not really going so well for me. i'm lagging behind a lot of my work. and i need to stumble upon a goldmine of luck and talent if i ever want to catch up.
basically that's it. truth is, i haven't even thought of you lately. and i'm not liking it. life with you was funner, albeit crazy. i think i also liked myself when i was caught up in thoughts of you. i think i was a happier person then.
see? you actually make me happy. lol.
dear (k)you,
hi. allow me one last post about this asshle mther fcker okay? he just fcking hurt me okay? more than i let other people know. like i keep telling everybody though, it's not him that hurt me per se. it's the situation i am in with him. i mean, HOW THE FUCK COULD I MESS UP LIKE THAT? HUH? HOW? tell me please cuz besides the obvious reason, I AM FCKING UNLIKEABLE, i can't see any other.
i already had it there. it was in the bag. he was one of those rare guys who are actually decent looking who found me minutely attractive. and yes, i just had to pull a classic ****-stunt, and
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!
... it's gone.
dear (k)you,
hi. tonight is one of those nights. i'm sad. i'm drinking. i'm smoking (surprise! after looong time, i finally dug up my stash). i'm lonely. i'm actually randomly crying. i'm listening to fucking sad songs. and for the first time in a long time.....
... it's not because of you.
and honestly, i think i was happier when i was all consumed by you. the person isn't really worth all this, it's mostly me. me realizing how unworthy i am of any admiration, love, whatever shit this is called. i really don't like it. i liked it better when i was living in my imaginary world with you and me. i always knew you and me was never going to happen, and to be honest that gave me cushion. i liked that cushion.
dear (k)you,
so my life is a standstill again (read: boring). i had a pretty exciting few weeks, but now they're back to being boring, sometimes miserable, but i'd go for boring any time of day.
in other news, i saw you again. psh. making me giddy and happy. again. hahaha oh and btw, did i mention that you became my run to again. i mean, you know about that other guy who disappointed the hell out of me right? well, whenever he screws with my head, i run to you, and i forget about him. kekeke.
so for that, 감사합니다! heart.
dear (k)you,
i really don't know why i haven't written this song to you before. the title seems fitting enough. but i realized that the reason i haven't is because the situation hasn't presented itself to me... until now.
i don't know if i told you, prolly in passing rage, but there's this guy who claims that he likes me. oh, he does drop hints here and there, but he never follows through anything he says. and for a girl, whether she likes the guy right up front or not, it's frustrating.
and today was one of those days that i can't even begin to describe how frustrated i am. if he is doing this on purpose, then he made a HUGE mistake, or he went a step too much. i seriously want OUT. so yeah, to the one constant thing in my life that doesn't frustrate me half as much, thank you. who'd have thought i'd find comfort in you eh?
honestly... me.
I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down
I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility
And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility
And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united
Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet... :)
