two hundred-sixty eighth.

dear (k)you,

okay. i just need to get this off my system before i do anything else to prepare for my sorta big day tomorrow. i don't know if i ever ranted to you about this friend of mine who would always get her way. and not just that, she would always get it, the FUCKING EASY WAY. 

case in point, when we were both young, we both wanted to become doctors. grades-wise, i was always higher than her. when we were both applying for university, i ended up having a gradepoint average higher than her. but since it was a prestigious university, i ended up in a program that wasn't so pretty. she didn't. few weeks passed by, she managed to pull some strings, and she fucking ended up in a degree course that was straight up road to medicine. WITHOUT FUCKING TRYING. 

I HAD TO FUCKING WORK MY ASS OFF TO GET FUCKING HIGH GRADES SO I COULD SHIFT OUT OF MY FUCKING DEGREE PROGRAM AND GO TO A MORE SOPHISTICATED ONE. AND I FUCKING ENDED UP IN THAT HELL I WENT THROUGH. SEVEN FUCKING HARD YEARS THROUGH HELL. AND NOW THAT I AM FINALLY DONE WITH IT... she's done with her second degree. and acting all high and mighty cause she's a fucking doctor.

WELL GUESS WHAT BITCH, I'M A DOCTOR TOO. SINCE YOU OBVIOUSLY THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I DON'T THINK YOU'RE EASY LITTLE ASS WILL BE ABLE TO HANDLE WHAT I WENT THROUGH.

so yeah, in hindsight i guess i was lucky. you, and OAO and the rest of my batchmates would know how much strength, courage and hardwork was put in for me to earn this degree. and sure, she may have two of those fucking degrees. and sure she has a more fancy title. but i wouldn't trade it for anything. i learned so much more. i gained so much more from life than she ever did.

fuck. all she did was study and stay up all night. i did that. plus all that shit clinics put me through.

so yeah. you're my friend and i love you. but right now.

FUCK YOU.