sixty-ninth.

dear (k)you,

i've known for quite sometime that one of your close friends might be getting married soon. and i don't know why it has taken me this long to actually digest that fact and why it's actually ripping my heart. come on, i've also known for quite some time that you probably have someone important (in that sense) in your life. it may not be as open as some of your friends, but i know that you probably have one. it's not normal for you not to. i mean, you're that type of person that can get 90% of the girls that you want. what scares (i think that's the appropriate term) that shit out of me is, that you might get an idea of getting married too. and i might not be able to take it. i know, it's kind of crazy for me to feel this way, but, you know that i have this weird claim over you. and i'm sorry. but, i just keep wishing that it be you. you and me. it's possible. anything's possible you know.

just... promise me you won't do anything crazy like that. you're young, you still have a lot to go through, don't... just don't okay?

at least wait for me. coz i'll be there, one way or another, i will.

OAO, please. please make it me.