eighty-first.

dear (k)you,

you may find this hard to believe but on of my favorite musicals is "les miserables". i know right? i sometimes can be classy. heh. but anyway, i first watched this musical on tape only, since it doesn't run where i am, but anyway daddy-o forced me to watch it and i fell in love with it. maybe i really like being miserable ne? keke. anyway, my ultimate favorite song there is eponine's "on my own". no reason really, i just like the lyrics and the melody and how eponine sang it.

but now it kinda takes a new meaning. coz of you. i don't know. i heard it on a variety show earlier and the lyrics seemed to be calling out to me. so weird.

And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to.
Without a home, without a friend
without a face to say hello to
But now the night is near
And I can make-believe he's here

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him 'til morning
Without him, I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way, I close my eyes and he has found me

In the rain
The pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him, the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me, his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness that I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him...
But only on my own...

heheheh. think about it. ;'p