seventy-eighth.

dear (k)you,

you have absolutely wonderful big brothers. absolutely adorkable. ah. you guys actually kill me. if i can love you all to pieces i will. kekeke. actually, i do. but of course, i love you best. hah.

anyway, i officially started school and let me tell you, i only had about, what 6 hours of lecture? and already my brain feels like it's going to go into hyperdrive and just die. lol. not because of information overload, but because i think i am so afraid of the days to come. it's like looking at a very, very, very, very (did i fail to mention very?) dark sky in the near horizon, with a side of thunder and lighting to boot. i don't think i have the confidence to do a good job. really. i dunno. the first step to success in this profession is confidence, but i think i don't have that at all. i am so scared and nervous. i even find myself wishing i develop some kind of disease or illness to prevent me from finishing this course. sucks i know but well, if OAO wants me to be this, then so be it. it'll prolly bring me closer to you in the end, so all the mental stress will be worth it.

speaking of that, a few days ago i've been fretting about my plans to go where you are when i finish school and set up a life there. i dunno because frankly, how can i build up my profession where you are? and then like an epiphany, my aunt was telling me about this friend of hers that works in the same field as her, but at the same time working in the same field as me. how cool is that? i mean, he has this employer back home that keeps him when he's not doing his other passion. i mean, kinda sad because that would mean i wouldn't be able to progress as a professional, but then again. i dunno. one thing's for sure though, i am going to be where there are kids. heh. coz i love them so. lol.